Sunday, June 6, 2010

Dear God

Dear God,

Are you watching over Sawyer? Is he happy? I miss him so much, my heart is so empty I don't know or can't imagine how it will ever feel full again.

I want to hold my baby against my chest one more time. I want to feel his soft head against my chin. I don't want to forget his face or how he smelled. I want to remember how his tiny fingers felt in my hands. I want my body to warm his sweet head and kiss him all over just one more time.

Sawyer can you feel me wanting you? Can you feel me touching you? I feel you come to me at night and I don't ever want to let you go. I love you sweet angel. Always.




yurasi said...

You are such an incredible person and mom, Michelle. I'm in awe of your strength and grace. Adequate words are failing to come right now, but I am keeping your family in my thoughts daily.

Kristina said...

Michelle... This was beautifully written!! You always get me teareyed that I cannot imagine what you are going through. you are a strong person! you continue to be in our thoughts and prayers!!!!

Anonymous said...

Oh dear sweet Michelle, I've read this several times now, and I have cried my eyes out. Since we've worked writing together, you have always had a beautiful and touching way with words. This is one of your best pieces. You should put a picture of Sawyer up with this letter or favorite poem framed next to it. Again, it's so beautiful and I know Sawyer is with God and his Grandfather healthy as can be watching over you with your other angels. I love you and your family. <3 Kaylee