Monday, March 03, 2008
The tube is out!!!
I don't have much time, but the doctor took out Sadie's ventilator this morning and she is doing great with her breathing!
This is a HUGE turning point for her. Please keep praying and praying. We hope to have her home in 10 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Monday update for Sadie
Hello everyone. This will be a quick email because we are exhausted tonight.
Sadie is doing very well today. She slept A LOT but she's been working really hard lately so she needed a break. The ventilator came out this morning and she's been breathing on her own ever since.
Sadie had to have her oxygen increased a little bit after a rough afternoon. Her breathing became heavy after she had to have a "pick line" (i might have spelled that wrong) inserted into her arm. They could not get an IV started in her at all, so this is the best alternative to sticking her little arms and legs all day with no luck.
Erik and I got to hold her for the first time today. We just sat there gazing at her little body, touching and exploring as much as we could. It's hard to see her fully because she has about a dozen tubes and wires coming out of her everywhere.
On a plus note, they removed the central line that they had inserted thru her belly button. One less tube for Sadie!
She was sleeping gently when we left and was breathing pretty well. We gave her lots of kisses today and she knows she is loved by all of you. Please keep praying for her to come home to us soon.
Love - Michelle and Erik.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
i held her for almost three hours today.
i just sat there and rocked her back and forth all afternoon while she slept. she has beautiful, long fingers that are so delicate and soft. she has my ears and erik's hair. she sneezes like me and hiccups like erik.
she just loves to be held and snuggled by mom and dad. we could sit there for hours and play with each little finger.
before we left tonight, erik and i stood by her crib and stared at her for almost an hour straight. it seemed like ten minutes.
we are so blessed to have her. i can't wait until we see her again tomorrow.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
today was really wonderful.
erik and i shared our beautiful girl - took turns holding her. you can't really do too much else because she's hooked up to so many things. but, i really don't think i want to do anything but hold her and love her.
she opened her eyes for me for the first time. it was like a dance when she looked into mine and i looked into hers. they are such dark eyes that give off the feeling of an old soul.
she is a really good baby. her cry is the most wonderful thing in the world to us. it takes little effort at all to calm her down. she just loves to be held and have her fingers gently stroked.
we actually left today without tears. the nurses have to issue reports at 7 p.m., and the parents can't be in the room. so just before seven, i wrapped her up and layed sadie in her crib. she fell asleep so quietly for us. she knew it was time for us to go.
she has to stay in the hospital for at least 7 more days to finish out her antibiotics. we can't wait to bring our little angel home.
Friday, March 07, 2008
Sadie is doing so well!
Sadie is doing so well! They are hoping to take the tubies out of her nose today and start breast feeds and bottle feeds at night!
I'm so proud of Sadie! She keeps on taking the tubes out on her own - so maybe this is her own way of saying "I'm ready to breathe guys!"
The time we spend with our baby is precious - but not quite the same as being home. We can't wait to get her here and be alone with her for once. It will be such a wonderful feeling. I can't wait.
She's doing very well with her breathing treatments and the antibiotics seem to be doing their job too.
I just can't believe how far she has come in ONE week. She was so extremely ill, and I can't believe how fast she went from a critical baby to a normal baby.
On another note, Children's Memorial Hospital is one of the most wonderful places I've ever stepped foot in. The support from ALL staff is amazing. We've spoken with the chaplain, a social worker, nurses and Sadie's team of doctors - and it's always been a great experience. We never feel out of the loop with knowing what's going on with her from one minute to the next.
Please keep praying for Sadie!
Sunday, March 09, 2008
i have so much to write about but no time.
sadie is doing better every day. she's feeding from me (what i can give) and we're supplementing her the rest. she's lost about half a pound, but she's tolerating feedings very well.
it's hard for me because i'm making so little milk and it hasn't come in yet. i make just under 1/3 of an ounce per pumping. it's very disheartening. but, i can't say i didn't try right?
i think my milk issue has to do with two things: stress and PCOS. more stress than anything.
i can't begin to explain what this journey has been like for erik and me. it's full of ups and downs. we cry every night...yell every night...question why this ever had to happen to us.
but, when we get up to see sadie, we forget everything else. she is our world.
taking her home will be so good for all of us.
leaving her at night is harder and harder every time.
but, erik and i are holding up as well as we can. we hope to have her home by next weekend. she changes so much overnight. i feel like we're missing so much.
keep praying for her.