Smiling baby on Ultrasound

Moo and Oink

Found a farm not too far from here that sells organic meat and dairy! We have been looking for a little while and I think it's going to be a great step for us to complete our new organic way of life. Of course, we still enjoy the occassional french fry - but I really feel that what we're doing is best for our bodies. The farm I found does a meat share where you get a monthly package of a variety of meats. After crunching some numbers, it comes out to cost us about $20-$40 more a month to buy organic, local, farm-raised meat. I think that's a VERY small price to pay. So...here little piggy! We're coming for ya!

Baby W - 9 Weeks

Check it out - Finally looking like a baby!

Pregnancy and the clotting factor

So here I am on my 5th day of bedrest. Stopped bleeding for almost 24 hours, but the longest I've gone without bleeding is just a week. The doctors are thinking it's because of a blood clot near my uterus that's causing all this bleeding. It's probably the most scary thing that I could possibly imagine happening.

And here's the gipper, apparently, I'm really good at getting pregnant and then getting slammed with the most unexpected shit mother nature can throw my way. I really don't know if I'm going to have another baby after this one. I really really wanted three. But it's looking like two's going to be our magic number. I seriously feel like if I get pregnant one more time, it's going to kill me. Literally.

Anyway, five more days until the next ultrasound - and hopefully five more days until I can start jabbing that needle into my stomach. I actually can't wait. Being on the lovenox will make me feel so much better about so many things. Then - if the bleeding stops - I can start worrying about something important. Like, are we having a boy or a girl? You know, NORMAL pregnancy mumbo jumbo.

Bedrest is for the birds

Let me tell you something about bedrest. It is bullshit. I can't do A N Y T H I N G and it sucks. I have no one here, I'm alone, I miss Sadie a lot and it's been - ohhh ONE day. I folded laundry and took a shower. Those were the highlights of my day.

And let me tell you something, you don't realize how much you do as a stay-at-home-mom until you are forced to do nothing. It's insane.

In other news - I was able to keep all my food down today. Hooray!

Baby Update (8 weeks)

After bleeding on and off for a week and after spending New Year's weekend in the ER, I headed back this morning after another long weekend of questioning whether or not this baby is going to make it through this pregnancy.

After heavy bleeding last night and passing blood clots, my doctor told me to head to the nearest ER to get evaluated again. In my heart, I truly thought this pregnancy was over.

To my surprise, the baby was still there with a strong heartbeat and healthy growth pattern. Unfortunately, the doctors were - again - unable to determine a cause of bleeding.

At this point, I'm showing no signs of miscarriage, but my doctor's nurse said that it didn't mean it can't happen. She said many women who bleed like this can go on to have healthy pregnancies, while for others - this serves as a warning sign.

For the next 10 days I have to be on bedrest at home without Sadie. But I am still feeling hopeful. I know my baby is still there with a heartbeat. I know that this baby is fighting to live. All of this gives me great hope among such scary moments. I am hoping that the worst of it will pass this first trimester and then we can move on to a beautiful, healthy baby and birth.

If anyone is actually reading this - please pray for our baby.