"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count.
It's the life in your years."
It's not just you. I remember the feeling of walking through a store, knowing my face was blank, staring at the happy people, and wondering if I would ever feel happy again. The feeling won't go away, but it will get better. *hugs*
I am keeping up with your blog, trying to at least. I am so sorry for your loss and I really dont know what to say. I've suffered 2 miscarriages and I thought that was the end of the world. But I have had 2 babies since then, and now can have no more, but I feel the same way you do, in that regard. Nothing anyone can say will ever ease your pain. You take as much time as you need and keep writing. You are definately an inspiration Michelle, and I dont even know you. I only know about you due to your loss. You are strong and it is amazing to read your posts. Keep writing. It is healing for you as well as others. Sawyer is proud of you for being able to be so strong, even when you feel like you are not. He loves you, misses you and understands. He will be waiting for you and Erik and Sadie as well when you will all be reunited. It may be years and years, but always remember because he will.
Not just you. After my stillbirth I felt the same way - pregnant women everywhere, and they were all so happy and so freaking innocent and clueless. I was jealous. Now, 9 months later, I'm 4 months pregnant - yesterday, in the grocery store, I caught a women staring at me with that really sad look in her eyes that I know, because I've been there. I wanted to tell her that I've lost a daughter, that I'm terrified, that I worry all the time. We never know someone else's story.
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