Wednesday, June 9, 2010

August 24th

That was supposed to be my due date with Sawyer. The hardest part of all of this are the little things. We might wake up, brush our teeth, dress Sadie for the day, make breakfast, fill up the gas tank - but everything is wrong. Everything is so painfully different.

I don't know how I'm going to get through the next three months knowing that I should still have my beautiful baby growing inside of me.

First you're numb, then you try to let go. Now, everything stings.


Anonymous said...

Oh sweetie, I can't even imagine what your heart, mind and body are going through, but all I can advise is keep Sadie closer. At least you have her. This is a horrible tragedy, but it didn't happen to your beloved first born that you have to lean on for support. I know I know nothing. But Sadie could be the best gift on earth at this present time. She can help you through this, love. I know you'll get through this with the help of all the people who love you, and there are sooooo many! We will ALL figure out a way. Do not fret, my dear gal. <3 Kaylee

Anonymous said...

(((HUGS)))) If you guys need anything let me know. I can't imagine what you guys are going through it is not fair at all that this happened to you guys.
I know nothing I can say or do will heal you guys, but just wanted to lend my support.


Anonymous said...

Honey, how you get through the next three months is up to you. If all you do is get up, dress Sadie, brush your teeth and fill up a gas tank, so be it! I know its tough to imagine that Sawyer is not "inside" you, but he is still growing in your heart and holding your hand every day. I know its not the same, but let little Sawyer's spirit carry you through these tough times. Give that beautiful little girl Sadie a big hug every morning and just know that even if that is the only thing you accomplish all day, it is enough!
With loving prayers,

Heather said...

This is devastating. I wish I could take away your pain. No one should ever have to feel like that. We are praying for you.