My mom instinct was right

Well, there's something I didn't expect Sadie to catch in the middle of the summer - croup.

She wasn't feeling so hot for a few days, then just started in with this terrible - barking cough late last night. Before I went to bed, and before her cough started, I woke up Erik to tell him to leave the car tomorrow so I could take her to the doctor. Low and behold, after lying awake for over an hour, she started hacking. Mom instinct goes a long way.

Milk maid

Sadie is impressing me every day. I can't get mad at her, although the term frustration is used quite a bit in my mommy vocabulary book.

First thing this morning after breakfast, I let her take her sippy cup full of milk into the living room. I never usually allow this because it sloshes and spills everywhere - but thanks to Sadie's new ability to drink from a "hard spout" spills aren't a worry any longer.

Instead, the new worry is apparently her amazing ability to open the sippy cup - all by herself! White milk all over the green area rug and, of course, all over her. Sticky goodness.

In other Sadie news she has learned two new words in a jiffy - "stop" and "hot." She also understands what these words mean, which comes in handy when cooking a pizza on the nights that I just can't bring myself to do more than press the preheat button.

Oh Mammers...You amaze me.

Lolcat and Sadie

Floating in and out

I had a friend. He's not my friend anymore.

I think that has been determined by the fact that it's been almost two years since we last saw each other - among other things.

Do you remember the conversation we had?

He told me that he pictured life as an actual highway - He was riding in a car.

Along the way, people get in and friends get out. Some stay for a while, some stay forever and some don't stay long at all.

In retrospect, I would think I'm that friend who didn't stay very long. This wasn't my choice and I don't think I could have seen this coming when we first became close. No actually, I never saw it coming. And it's sad.

It's sad that you changed and I changed. Sad that we can't make it work any longer.

I'm angry that you haven't been part of my life - the most important part of it so far. You'd really love her. She has eyes that sparkle and is incredibly strong-willed. She's all you told me she would be, but you don't want to see it.

I don't know who you are any more, but I know that I miss the person I used to know. So here I go, floating farther away every year, every day, every minute. Thanks for the ride.

Fat assss

I used the extra s's to emphasize how fat my ass has gotten lately. I have gained so much weight from this time last year until now. I don't think I eat any more than I used to, but I sure as hell am not doing as much.

I need to get motivated and get my fat assss into the gym and back on a routine. It's hard in the summer, but I think the recent video Erik took of me from behind while I was walking with Sadie was enough of a wake-up call. Seriously. I would love to just get knocked up and barf my brains out again and lose the weight. THAT WAS EASY. It was. At least for me.

The gym might be a nice change of pace. I can take Sadie along so she can have her play time and I can have my alone time. I just have to get into the routine of it. Which I suck at. Please help me. I just want my ass back.

Yee Haw

I'm bored

I'm not looking for backlash here from busy moms...but I'm a bored mommy.

We pretty much just have our little routine here. Breakfast, letter video, playtime, color, nap, lunch...When Sadie's napping, I usually take a nap too - or a long bath.

It's about the nicest thing ever. Trust me, there are days when I have an abundance of things to do...I do all of the bills, I clean, I cook everything, make lunches, iron. But, I'm happy. And I'm bored. And it's great. I think this downtime is definitely welcome in the Williams house.

I'm looking to start a part time job on the weekends here coming up in the winter. Wish a girl some luck. I need my own spending money.